Sitting in God's Grace

Currently sitting in God's Grace.


Exhausted, discouraged, scared, confused, angry, bitter, skeptical.


It's good to know that no matter how terribly I fail at being a Christ like individual God's grace is always there to cover me. Sometimes I get so disappointed in myself and I can only imagine what God thinks about me.


It's times like these that the meaning of the cross truly hits home. That God knew we couldn't help ourselves, that we would constantly fail. That I would be me, a sinner. That I couldn't help but be human. This is why He sent His only Son.


For God so loved the world He gave His only son, so that whoever believes in Him will not perish but will have everlasting life. -John 3:16


Jesus died so that I may live in eternity with Him. His blood shed on the cross, it covered me so that my sin is not seen by God but is cleansed by the blood of Christ. I am seen as pure and faultless because Jesus took my sin to the cross and died for me and everyone else on earth.


Sometimes its hard being a follower of Christ. Trying to "walk the walk", be a good example, and spread the word. It can be really exhausting. Especially when I feel as if I am the last person in the world who should be spreading such  "Good News". Although I try hard to be a good example, I would say at least 500 times a day I fail at being Christ like. This is where Hillsongs' track "Forever Reign" really speaks to me. "You are good you are good when there is nothing good in me."


It's good to know that even as I fail, I can still succeed because of Christ. When there is no good, when there never was any good Christ died for me and became the only good thing within me. It's relieving to know that there will always be good within me and that it's not because of anything I do but is purely Christ.


Because of Christ I sit in peace tonight.

Just Thinking

Location: Sitting on the floor in the religious section of Borders bookstore.


This section of books, in this store is one of my favorite places to be. It's where I receive inspiration. Books and books written on Jesus. My Savior. I can only hope that one day maybe I will be one of these inspirational writers. While browsing through the plethora of books in front of me one book in particular enters my thoughts. The Bible. The Holy Book, written by the hands of men, but inspired by God. Suddenly, I am convicted. How often do I go to the Bible to find my inspiration? I have read plenty of biblically based books... but have completely failed to read scripture cover to cover. I am able to find inspiration and direction for my life in the Bible, but most of the time it's only after being directed by biblically based books. Then I begin to think of the many individuals who are, will, and have been persecuted for harboring this sacred text. How the Bible is their ONLY resource. The Bible is more than likely the only book the persecuted can discover Christ, His ways, and their purpose. This is the only book that brings them closer to the heart of Christ. These persecuted brothers and sisters don't have millions of "how to" books on Christianity. They have ONE.


Just thinking: Would I be able to walk the walk with the Bible as my only resource? Forgoing all the "how to" books, all things philosophical and apologetic. Would I be able to rely solely on the testimonies written in the Bible? Would the Bible be enough?