McDonald's, A laptop, and A homeless guy

I'm writing this blog humbly, not to say look at me but to tell of a lesson from God.

Long story short, lately I have seen this homeless guy walking around Central Park(Fredericksburg) with his dog on a leash and a backpack on his back. This week I have seen him approximately 3.5 times.

Last night I went out to dinner with my mentor. As we were walking out to the parking lot across the street I saw a dog chained to a pole. Finally I wasn't driving or in a rush to get anywhere so I decided I going was to find out how I could help the man. I gathered what I could from my wallet and went to give it to the man.

I walked into the McDonald's and asked if anyone knew who's dog was tied up outside. There appeared to be two homeless-men in the McDonald's at the time but the one who owned the dog raised his hand and snarkly said " Let me guess, you want to pet him." This kind of killed my mood but what completely crushed all feelings of joy was when I saw the laptop he was using in front of him.

I said a few words and gave him what I had gathered. After an exchange of blessings from God I boogied.

Reaching my car in the parking lot I felt completely gipped. What I had expected was not what came to fruition. I thought I had set out to help someone who had absolutely nothing to their name, no money, no family, notta! Seeing that laptop in front of him made me question whether he really needed my help. Could I have better helped the other homeless man sitting across the restaurant? This is when regret came and sang its' song over me, however God's words were not too far behind.

"Who are you to judge?"

Who am i to judge? Who am I to say this laptop wasn't this mans only possession? This could have been someone else's laptop. Just because he owns a laptop doesn't mean he can afford a 1,300$ a month apartment, a car to drive, and food. He could have saved a few bucks to buy this laptop, his only ticket to the outside world.

This is when I realized that this was not a matter of need but was a matter of heart. Was my heart in the right place? Did I have the right mindset? Was my sole purpose in giving this man money to provide for him or to let him know about the One who always will provide? God had called me to give to THIS homeless man, and not to question that calling.

Homeless or not is not for me to judge.

Check your motives Self.